Saturday, April 25, 2009

Longing...

It's hard to believe my spring break is over. I had a much needed visit with my best friend, Kristi, and her girls. I also got to spend a few days with my brother and sister-in-law. The trip was great, but it's not what's on my heart tonight...

As I was flying home today, my mind kept drifting to the future...to the day when I will make the long journey back to the US...with baby Emma in my arms. It seems like it may never happen, but I know that someday it will. As I rode up the escalator and walked down the hall toward my mom who was there to pick me up, I imagined all the emotions I will feel as I make that long walk with Emma...ready to introduce her to the people who love her already. AAAHHH! I cannot wait for that moment...My heart feels...I don't know...is it overflowing or breaking...or both?!?! I just want it to happen. I can't describe the longing in my heart right now...

Precious Lord, Hold my baby until I can! Bring us together in your time...hold my heart together through this difficult wait!

3 comments:

The Raudenbush Family said...

Waiting is so hard. The day WILL come. I know that He is caring for your Emma already and is caring for you as well, preparing you both for each other.

Susan said...

Welcome home.

Erica said...

that day will come. I know it is easy for me to say that, but the moment will be as great or greater than you can imagine. You can see the manic looking expressions on the faces of my family, my son and me that The Today Show opted to use for their adoption video. It was a huge moment and it was all I could do not to run the last bit so that my family could finally meet the boy we had prayed for.

They day will come and the tears don't end on that day. They sneak up on me when I am not expecting them. Last night as my son and I sat on the couch with our high fevers he smiled at me and blew me a raspberry. I laughed through the tears. I am sure he will think I am crazy the older he gets, but it catches me off guard some times.