Friday, December 4, 2009

I'm so hungry, I could eat a...

...just about anything!  5 days down....5 to go!

Doing these days of liquid diet has really made me think of the role food plays in my life.  I should eat to live...not live to eat.  But that's what I've done my whole life - live to eat.  During one meal, I am planning the next.  Also, I am just so blessed with abundance!  As hungry as I have felt these past few days...I have food...I have the ability to buy what I need - even what I want.  I am hungry because of a plan to work towards something...not because I have no food.  I am thankful for these days that remind me of how very much I have.

Now...all that thinking and thankfulness did not take away the fact that today was hard.  I am tired and have little energy...my body feels a bit weak.  There is a fuzzy line between body and mind...what affects the mind, can affect the body and vice versa.  Being on this diet has been playing with my mind a bit...I am more emotional...more anxious...more irritable.  I feel like my emotions are just barely under the surface and could explode at any given time.  I need some extra prayers to get me through these next 5 days.

Having a stressfull job and a very high maintenance class has not made this easier...but I am thankful that it keeps me so busy that I don't have a lot of time to think about being hungry!  Today was especiallly lovely at school - i had 2 students suspended for three days for fighting by 9:00 and another required to do work around the school during his play time due to fighting before 11:00.  I know it's Christmas and close to a full moon and the forecast was calling for snow, but really???  It was nuts today!  I looked at our curriculum specialist and just shook my head...then she was kind enough to do some work with my class for a few minutes so I could get my head cleared!  It was a rough one!

But again...those children are not in my class or my life by mistake.  God has placed them there...and not jsut for me to help them, but for them to help me.  when I am able to step back and look at the situation, I see very clearly that God is using them to help me be a more patient and loving person.  I am learning to not just look at what a person does and get angry, but realize that there's so much more under the surface that these kids are dealing with each day.  I am thankful that GOd has entrusted them to me...and even though I fail miserably at times, we are working and learning together through the year.

Apparently, this diet is also making me sappy and long winded...think I will go to bed now! 

Blessings, my friends!  Thanks for your encouragement through these days!  You are fabulous!

5 comments:

Cindy said...

You are doing it, girl! You're doing it!!!!!! Keep up the great work! Please play theme to Rocky while reading this message ;) Feeling stronger....

The Raudenbush Family said...

Wow -- I would expect for your emotions to be high. When my sugar is low, I get really really grouchy--no control over it at all. You WILL make it though. And, you will be SO happy you did! Keep going!
Kelly

Monica said...

It's interesting what we see when all of our comforts are taken from us. This is all an important part of the process- you are beginning to change already, Angie, even though you may not see it in the mirror yet.
Blessings to you and great job!! I pray your day at home from work is a relaxing one.

JenniferLayne said...

Oh, Angie, you are doing so great!!!! Keep pressing on. Love you, friend!

Alana said...

Hey girl! Wow, I am out of the loop and behind on blog reading! I've been catching up, so I just read about your surgery. My Mom just had this done and it has gone really well for her so far! I will keep you in my prayers, friend, as I know the struggles of trying to lose weight. Love ya!