Saturday, January 16, 2010

You might want to sit down for this...

  I have debated posting about this...kind of like when you find out your pregnant, you may wait to announce it to people.  Well, I have decided that the more people praying, the better!

I have been on the Special Needs list with my agency since May 2008.  I asked to be placed on hold in January 2009 in anticipation of surgery that I was hoping to have in the summer.  Well, when surgery couldn't happen until December, I asked to be kept on hold.  In my mind I was trying to order everything...waiting for the perfect time to reactivate my status.  I finally decided that there is no "perfect" time and there is never enough why not do it now?? 

I did

...and I am #1 on my agency's list

...and a list is going to be released on Monday

...calls will be made Tuesday morning

...and Emma COULD be on it!!!!

You can pick your chin up off the floor now!

So...what now?  here's the scoop.  I have asked to be matched with a baby girl...less than 2 years old with minor needs not requiring multiple surgeries.  If there is a child that matches that description...and my SW can get to the match, I will have an opportunity to review that file and decide  if it's the right fit.  The kicker is that there are 50 other agencies looking at this same list...I don't know how many children will be on the list.  If I decide to pursue a child, I will have 48 hours to have the file reviewed by docs and complete the necessary paperwork.  yes, there is more paperowork.

I need lots of prayer!  Could you be lifting up these specific needs?

  •  that the Lord would help my SW, Sarah, to have wisdom as she searches the files throughout the night for the families on the list.
  • I am likely to at least have a file to review, but there is no guarantee that it will be the right match for me.  Please pray for clarity of thought as I review the files.  That I would not be blinded by the precious faces needing a family...or frightened by the scope of it's a lot of information to be able to sort through.
  • For peace...that the Lord would give me strength to say "no" if a child is not the right fit...even if it means not getting a match this month.
  • That the Lord would give me an immediate and overwhelming sense of peace if it is my child.
  • For my friends Amy (another single momma to be) and Kelly (and fam) as they are probably going to be reviewing files as well.
  • wisdom for the doctors who will be reviewing my files and determining with me if this is a good fit for me.  There are so many things to consider!
  • For many families to see the faces of their children...and many children to be one step closer to their forever family!
Here's to a weekend full of nesting!


The Chambers Family said...

WOW!!! This is an amazing turn of events. I will be praying, praying, praying!!!

Susan said...

Angie these are incredibly well thought out prayer requests. As difficult as it will be to review a file and not have that Peace, I pray God will guide your decisions. If Emma isn't on this list, know it's not much longer!!! The light is indeed at the end of the tunnel.

The Raudenbush Family said...

Thank you for including us on these requests. I love how you listed out the requests. It will help me to organize my prayers for both of us and for your other friend. 72 hours and we could be seeing your daughters for the first time... wow.

Monica said...

I'm so excited for you!!!! Regardless if things work out this time, your eminently expecting now:) I will be praying as you asked and will be checking back often to hear your news.

Caroline said...

Yay!! I am so excited for you!! This is Caroline, Cindy's niece (Celia's Mom). I've been reading your blog ever since I saw it on her site and I'm really happy for you!! I'll pray that God provides the most peaceful and clear answer for you, and that the solution will bless all -- you, Emma, and everyone involved. Good luck!

Erica said...

Wow, you must be on pins and needles! Having been through a similar experience I know how amazing and how stressful it is to try to decide what is right for your family. I'll pray for wisdom and peace whichever way you go.

amazeingteacher said...

I'm both excited and scared about what is to come this week for us! I've been praying for Emma and Molly since 4:30 this morning {the time the Lord seems to be waking me recently}! May the Lord give you a special kind of peace that only can come from Him!

tiffany said...

Wow! Wow wow wow. Cant wait to hear! :)

Becky said...

I'm glad I checked your blog before church this evening. Some very specific prayer requests for a very detail oriented God.

lifeisbornofme said...

You don't know me, but I have been reading your blog for awhile. My life has been changed by adoption, and I feel that yours is a beautiful story. I couldn't be more excited for you! I will lidt up your needs to the One who will provide!

Tiffany said...

Oh, Angie. I am crying and goose bumping as I read this. I can't even tell you how excited I am for you and for Emma, whether she be there for you to review this month or soon. Jason is so into it too. I love it. We just talk about it and pray for you. We can't wait to hear what happens! I know God is working through you and can't wait to see what your future holds! Woohoo!

Kim said...

OOOHHH I just got chills, so excited for you!!!!!