Thursday, May 13, 2010
That word is plaguing me right now...unknown. I received some papers to proof tonight one was her "certificate of abandonement" and the other is her birth certificate. It states her biological parents and her place of birth are unknown. I am thankful though that while there are so many unknowns in her life, she is totally known by her Creator...The One who made her and knows her completely...the One who watches over her even when I cannot...the One who loves her with a love that is bigger than I can even fathom...
Today was full of so many emotions...I wasn't even sure I was going to be able to post about it. The start odf the day was a bit of touring around the city. We went to the small Wild Goose Pagoda. It was a beautiful garden and former Buddhist temple. Thereere several shops there. In one, local farmers and artists sold paintings. Some were "classical chinese painting" and some were called "peasant paintings." They were all so beautiful, I bought one of the classical pieces. At another place, there was a very talented calligrapher who wrote her Chinese name as well as her American name on a beautiful piece of rice paper. I plan to fram this for her room. Within the Pagoda, was the drum tower with a large bell that you could ring for good luck.
After that, we went to a jade factory to learn the ins and outs of jade. I bought a gift for my Momma...she said she wanted a piece of jade...as well as a bracelet for Emma when she is older. I was a little shocked at how pricey it was. There are 4 things to look for when purchasing Jade.
1. Color...pieces with a variety of shades and colors are of a higher quality than pieces of one color.
2. Transluscence...light will pass through better quality jade
3. hardness...higher quality jade is harder
4. Finally, more detailed pieces are higher quality
There's your jade lesson for today...there will be a quiz.
After that, we headed to visit the place where Emma was found. She was found in the pediatric ward of a hospital. As I got out of the can, my heart just sank thinking about what that day must have been like for her birthmother and birthfather. I wondered where exactly they layed her down...was she bundled up? Did she cry? I have the name of the person who found her, but was unable to locate him or anyone at the hospital to question them. My heart was so torn - so happy that she is mine, but aching for all she has lost in her 2 short years. She is an amazing child!
Then, we drove to the orphanage. The grounds were beautiful and well maintained. We met the manager of the orphanage there and she led us to her office and shared some facts about the orphanage as well as a lollipop with Emma and John...I think Emma is STILL sticky. There are about 800 children in the care of the orphanage. About 400 of those are in foster homes and the remaining 400 live there at the orphanage. Well...399 now!
The nannies scolded me something fierce for not having her dressed warmly enough and I confess that I would have put more on her if I had known it was THAT chilly. they even gave me a pair pf pants to put on over her clothes!
I had her in the carrier...not really wanting to let anyone else hold her during our visit, but they just come up and took her out of my arms...I thought they were going to pull off her legs or my neck trying to get her out. She did go to them and seemed glad to see them, but in the end, I am happy to say, that she reached for me and I gladly took her! What a blessing that was for my heart...she knows that I am Momma!
My heart was so overwhelmed by the end of the visit. I think I could have just layed there and cried. It was a blessing to visit those special places - and I am so gla I went, but it was not easy. In fact, I think Emma faired better than Momma...it just broke my heart. I am glad that in years to come, I will be able to share with her a bit more about her first 2 years.
Another emotional point of today was that Amy had to leave to return to the states. We will miss her so much as she was a great help and Emma loved being in the stacking cup band with her Aunt Amy. I will be so glad to see her again when we return...and I have a feeling she will have a bag of Pal's frenchie fries in her hand!
Tomorrow we will leave Xi'an...the only place Emma has ever known. I will be sad to leave for that reason, but am really looking forward to moving on. I am so emotionally tired...and jsut lonesome for home. Our last stop is Guangzhou in southern China. It is here that Emma will have a medical exam and a TB test...please pray that she does not have a reaction to the TB test or anything else that may delay our return. We will also have an appointment with the US Consulate and apply for a VISA for Emma to travel to the US...her new home.
Tomorrow morning is free and I will spend it packing. PLease be praying for Emma as she takes her first flight...just a taste of what it to come...